Sieweez❤

babysitting

2012-02-08T01:00:00.026+08:00

so naughty but so cute :)

just a little thought

2012-02-08T00:37:00.004+08:00

"My dentist once told me that letting go is like pulling a tooth. When it was pulled out, you’re relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was not hurting you doesn’t mean you did not notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you so much pain. Therefore, move on and let go."

Love is a very funny thing.one moment u can be so happy and the next u can be so devastated,it's like a knife literally slicing your heart bits by bits.but the thing with love is that everyone needs it no matter what.i admit,i can't leave without a bf.but that doesn't mean i go date any random guy i see.every guy i date,i pour my heart and soul out and i have no regret.i did everything i can and if they don't appreciate so be it.i gave my all.a person can only take that much of hurt,pain,empty promises and lies.but i am happy now.i am contended with what i have now.life is good now.it might not be prefect but i am happy.i can finally breathe and be me again :)

Life so far

2012-01-31T18:20:00.026+08:00

Enrolled in uni
Had a lot of good food
And a lot of good times with Mr.D and friends and family :)

living young wild and free

2012-01-03T12:17:00.036+08:00

So what we get drunk
So what we smoke weed
We’re just having fun
We don’t care who sees
So what we go out
That’s how its supposed to be
Living young and wild and free

sudah 2012.so fast.there goes my 2011.another year wasted doing nonsense -_____-" so to start off my blog post for 2012,i shall put a picture spam :)

on some random night whereby karl decided he wanna be an obscene stripper baby

the day mini is back in ipoh with heath.
Day 1.Round 1-Bricks and Barrel

Round 2-Barroom

Day 2- Lavish

One fine day in Ipoh Padang

And the alcohol i intend to steal.hmmmmm.......

well there's actually more picture la but noone is uploading it or wanna take picture wif me.i think coz i cut my hair d and i look ugly so noone wanna take picture with me anymore.that must be the reason la.my xmas and NYE was very simple but there is always alcohol and friends involve :) till next xmas and NYE again.anyways i would like to end the post by saying HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :) may 2012 bring lots of joy,laughter and alcohol.

Before you walk into my life

2011-12-21T22:47:00.002+08:00

You need to know something about me.You need to know that I'm a very insecure person, I have a very low self esteem, I'm not perfect. I am everything but perfect. I find it hard to trust people now. I've made mistake in the past and I've learned to live with them. I've learned to accept people for who they really are, it's not hard. Sometimes, I can't be bothered anymore. Sometimes I don't even want to be alive,but, the thing is, I have a million reasons to be alive and I just haven't found them yet. Sometimes i do miss the people that I shouldn't even think about anymore. But hey, I'm not perfect. This is me. So before you walk into my life, you need to know these things. Because, if you walk into my lfie,you can't walk out of my life when things are getting hard. Just like all the other people did.

new hair

2011-12-19T03:50:00.003+08:00

i don't even know why i go cut my hair again.HAHAHAHAHA new year's resolution no more cutting my hair!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ok i know it's damn short now.not famine anymore.i look like a small boy now.but i think it's ok la.not that bad i guess?but my hair is not done yet according to the hairstylist.hehehehehe i guess i just love to mess with hair.i know bangs again?come on!i'm going to uni soon.i can't be the old looking one now can i?so i must look kiddie abit to blend in lerr of coz :) newayz i just mengada wanna post my new hairstyle kekekekekeke coz i am vain like that?it's been awhile since i last posted pictures of myself.always emo sad.i also sick of myself being like that.i guess change is good?HAHAHAHAHAHAHA now i feel like some typical cina ah pek.got new hair style means new life.bullshit la.just something new to stare at in the mirror instead of my pathetic old sad hair which i hated.still not used to this hair but i'll try :)

bittersweet

2011-12-17T03:46:00.003+08:00

Have you heard of footprints in the sand?

One night I dreamt that I was walking along the beach with my friend. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets. Other times there was only one. This bothered me alot because I noticed that during the low periods of my life when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could only see one set of footprints in the sand. And so I said to my friend, "you promised me, that you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?" The friend replied: "the years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you"

I promise you I'll carry you through all the bad times. I'll never let you fall.

Dear you,the person whom once I loved so much that it almost consume me.you were everything to me until u broke my heart.u shattered my heart like glass.so i walked away with my shattered heart.along the way on my journey to find someone to fixed my heart back it got shattered again and a part of me died.i was so frustrated with myself,my life.i was feeling so hopeless.everything that i planned for my life failed.everyday i spend my life like a fucking zombie.but u were my best friend.i knew u knew that i was at the lowest point of my life.u knew what i needed.constant companionship.yes u knew i was a spoiled kid whom need constant love and attention from someone.u knew i was lonely inside.so u were there for me when i was at my lowest point.no matter how hard i chase u away,u stayed.u helped me to pick up the pieces again.yes i am touched.i feel loved again.but like a broken glass,once it's broken,there's always a crack no matter how hard to try to stick them back together.but this won't change how i feel for u.u saw me at my worst and still stick around.u have proven to me that u'll be there for me.yes i am clingy like that and yes many might say this is a rebound.well,nope.u promised to catch me whenever i fall and u broke it once but i am a strong believer in second chances and i right now i feel safe because i know you will catch me whenever i fall and you'll carry me through all the bad times and never let me fall.

Life

2011-12-08T05:52:00.004+08:00

Whenever I tell myself I’m already happy and contented, life fucks me all over and I get sad again, unaware that I’m letting all the negativity in. After that, I go through a state where I don’t even care about anything anymore. Emotional blunting. I don’t give a damn about me, you, anyone else, even my friends and family. And it goes on for so long, until I realize that I’m not going anywhere if I don’t do anything to help myself. So I start ‘perking up’ and thinking positive, and that attracts good things. And when I think I’m happy again, life decides to ruin everything for me.

It’s so hard to grow up. I don’t think I still want to sometimes. I finally understand Peter Pan.

Dear future husband

2011-12-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

So i had this really random dream whereby my husband left me on my wedding day via sms.(fucker i swear if my fiance does that,i will hunt the asshole down and kill him) newayz the reason why he left me is because all my friends are alcoholic and the doesn't want to pay the wedding bill and i am still drunk it seem -__________-" i don't even know why i woke up laughing ah after the dream.mental issue.

anyways this dream got me day dreaming of my wedding and the theme of the wedding is "Noone goes back SOBER" woots!!my wedding will be the wedding of the century la!then every time i see my wedding my picture i would be like "WTF?when did this happen?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i can foreseen my in-laws hating me now unless they r aso alcoholics la.HAHAHAHAHAHA

So my friends,to avoid me getting dump on my wedding day,pls bring ur own bottle bitches!i only supply vella wine!each table one.u all can steal from those ppl who doesn't drink!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA omg!kaki botol man u all!

the main reason for this post?to inform whoever my future husband is that i feel sorry for u to choose me because i have nonsense friends and yes on our wedding is either we elope or noone goes back sober.reason?# 1 coz i have nonsense friends #2 coz i got parents that drives me nuts so yea gotta have alcohol to layan them so yea thank you for wasting ur life reading this :)

hello.....bye!

2011-12-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

xmas wishlist

2011-11-27T05:24:00.000+08:00

~~New camera~~
~~iPhone 4s~~
~~Alienware 17"~~
~~Polaroid~~
~~Anna Sui Skin Care~~
~~iPad~~
~~Tiffany & Co Necklace~~

No.I don't want any of those.I just wanna spend time with me love ones and have a wonderful Christmas.

2011-11-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

I’m scared to move on because I’m worried that the second I’m happy with someone else, you’ll pop up and ruin it. Ruin it by telling me you want me, and that you’re sorry, and that you like me ‘kinda a lot’, and that you miss me ‘kinda a lot’. I’m worried that I’ll get so confused because I’ll be so happy with him, but of course I’ll still want you, and that will make me start crying all the time, end up losing the best relationship I ever had, just have you get bored again and move on to some slut. The worst part about all of this? I can see you doing it, because you want me hooked, you want me as an option, even if it is an option you’ll never take.

cupid's fall

2011-11-25T04:30:00.000+08:00

The long distance relationship

2011-11-23T07:18:00.003+08:00

which watching this video,i told myself i don't think i can take these kind of relationship and with the twist at the end which is kinda touching.but it let me think about alot of things.yes i'm always with my phone because that's the only device that make me feel that u're beside me all time every time.i told myself before no more long distance relationship and yet i still put myself trough this.which i hate myself for doing so but i can't help.distance really sucks.it does big time.but it doesn't matter because every moment spent with u is precious even it's just a text or bbm,it still means alot and i appreciate it.

We're never gonna be as young as we are tonight.

2011-11-21T04:31:00.008+08:00

i seriously miss having a camera.i really do wanna have a camera so i can capture all those happy moments even they might be just a momentary happiness.

happy 111111

2011-11-11T03:31:00.002+08:00

it only happen once in our life time.it might be something great for some people and it might mean ntg at all to others.but when the clock strike 11.11 i made my wish.call me superstitious but that's all i could think of.i hope u all had a great 11.11.11 and remember to make a wish wherever u are and may all your wishes come true :) ♥♥♥

random thoughts

2011-11-07T19:55:00.014+08:00

up down,down up

2011-11-07T03:12:00.024+08:00

HELLO PPL!!!!!!!!!!*wipes dust* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i know it took me forever to update my blog.i am lazy like that.sorry.plus i was damn busy ok?*clears throat* HAHAHAHAHAHA i've been busy traveling this pass 2 weeks.so many things happened.omg.even i myself is shocked wif all the sudden events in my life *faints*

ipoh ✈ penang

so the reason i went to penang is to get my cert since i missed my graduation.actually no i didn't missed my graduation,i didn't want to attend it.HAHAHAHAHAHA lansi i know.bla....whatever.anways......have u met my cutie pink lover?isn't she cute?HEHEHEHEHE we both love pink alot so yeah :) me pink lover name is anna and she's so adorable.really and i am so glad that i spend time with her hehehe she and her by ndee is like the cutest couple ever.they look so sweet together....awww.......how i wish i knew them earlier.it would be so much.(ANNA R U READING THIS?!) hahahahahahaha

so sweet of them right?i told you they are very cute :) they make me so happy whenever i see them.i dunno why aso.HAHAHAHAHAHA well let's say the week in penang was fucking epic.it's was like an emotional roller coaster ride.one minute i'm so happy the other i'm pissed then sad then happy.OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahaha i was kinda sad i had to leave.

penang ✈ ipoh

but then i met my crazy bunch of friends in ipoh and i was like all fine again :) (damn kacang lupakan kulit right?i know) HAHAHAHAHAHA anyways it was a great night out.met alot of people.had fun dancing and drinking in the club.no drunk moments (thank God) and lots of laughter.i was that semangat ah!right after i came back from penang,straight bath and went out.i dun even know where i get all those energy from also.maybe secretly i have superpowers?hahahahahahahahahahaha it was awesome despite the fact i didn't have any sleep for like 24hours.it was epic.

i wish my camera didnt die or else i would have damn alot of pictures lorr :( then i can keep damn alot of memories of these rare reunion :( newayz after 2nights in ipoh i followed heng fong back to kl

ipoh ✈ kl

so yeah,the reason i went to kl is coz i wanna do my uni stuff.apply uni and shit.i end up staying in kl for another week.HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i had great time in kl also.i slept like noone business ah!damn teruk i know :)

i was not the only piggie.these 2 naughty cuties teman me sleep till 4pm almost everyday.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA we have staring competition to see who fall asleep first and of coz the winner is me.HAHAHAHAHA and i am torn between my uni choices which suck!!!argh!but i'll apply two la.don't care la.at kl aso was an emotional roller coaster ride.i wish i wasn't that emotional but i can't help it.argh!!then IT'S HARI RAYA HAJI WEEKEND!so i followed heng fong's car back again.

kl ✈ ipoh

on the way back to ipoh,damn alot of car.....it was like a bumper to bumper crawl.oh God.the next time i wanna come back ipoh also dunno how la.*scratch head* so ya here i am back in ipoh again being boring.i seriously should go to work lorr....but i damn lazy :/

u know this is what i wake up to every morning.like some crazy business woman like that.my friends spam me like crazy!come back already la u all.no need spam spam all!!

see the crazy notifications!!!!!!!i know it looks like only 1 person but is actually a few and it's like freaking fun??HAHAHAHAHA i love u crazy spammers!!seriously damn free ntg to do lorr u all.*tsk tsk tsk* HAHAHAHAHAHA

and say hi to my room.HEHEHEHEHEHEHE i bought this sticker thingy from viva homes in cheras.damn nice horr?i haven't finish bling the flowers yet.hmmmm.......i need more bling.i shall go buy more blings.HEHEHEHEHEHEHE newayz what's my purpose of writing this post?erm no.the reason is coz i can't sleep.that simple.HAHAHAHAHAHA newayz thank you for wasting ur life reading this.

2011-10-23T01:55:00.002+08:00

At first I think it's great that I'm talking to you again. but when we started talking,flash back came in. Bringing back old memories. And I start to realize how much I really miss us and how I really want you back. But then I remember, you don't need me like I need you.

And it hurts.

Someone once told me: "with each time you cry, you become stronger. Feelings are like tears, it will stream down your face and it will dry in time. Your heart dies a little more each time and soon you become numb"

It's true.

I'm pretty numb. But somewhere deep down in my heart, I'm still trying to protect that last bit of feelings I have for you. I never want to forget you. Even heartbreak is a gift from you to me now.

I'm angry, I'm mad and I'm disappointed. I can't be happy for you because I'm selfish. Love is selfish. Fuck the crap about being happy for someone if you love them.

Even if nobody in this entire world knows, you should know. Nobody knows what exactly happened. People will always see what they see and assume what they think it is. But you are not people.

Everyone wants to know why I won't let go. It's because if I walk away, I know you won't come after me. I don't think I'm silly. I know I've been hurt time and time again, but my heart says I'm on the right track.

"i knew from the moment we met, that you'd be hard to forget. Do you realised what you are to me? And what you're always gonna be? You're the love of my life, everyone else will only be second best. There will never be another you. I wish I could be telling the truth when I say I'm over you. You don't just stop loving someone. You either never did or always will. I don't want you to know so I try to be strong. I don't want you to think that without you I can't go on. But that's just how it is. Without you, there's no me."

"I think one of the worst feelings in the world, right behind heartbreak, is that disgustingly empty feeling you get right after you spill your heart out and lay all your cards on the table. Right after you get the courage to say everything you have been feeling and be completely and recklessly honest. it's that feeling you get right after you risk everything, and he just walks away. Because then you'd realise that you just lost. You just lost everything you didn't even know you had when you said "what do I have to lose?"

There's no use fighting this feeling.

we found love

2011-10-21T03:00:00.002+08:00

It's like screaming, and noone can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. Noone will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it's over and it's gone, you almost wish you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you could have the good

think about it

2011-10-20T07:17:00.004+08:00

Blow your unhappiness and insecurities away. Stay happy and confident
Things happen for a reason. Sometimes, they happen so that you learn that it just wasn't meant to be.
When you feel like giving up, Remember why you held on for so long in the first place..
Always listen to your heart because even though it's on your left side, it's always right.
Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness
For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.
Love builds bridges where there are none
Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn't change anything. It messes with your mind and steals your happiness.
I was smiling yesterday, I'm smiling today & I'll smile tomorrow. It's simply because life is too short to cry for anything that’s worthless
Everybody has a secret that nobody knows about. and the reason they don’t tell, is because they know you will judge.
People may hate you for being different and not living by society's standards, but deep down, they wish they had the courage to do the same.
Sometimes, you have to smile, pretend everything is okay, and just walk away.
You just have to do your own thing...no matter what anyone says. It's your life, not theirs.
Embrace your dreams and embrace your love
I miss when I was little, and didn't care about my weight, clothes, or hair. I just did what made me happy

once it ends

2011-10-18T03:32:00.003+08:00

我以为我死了,原来我还活着

once upon a time,i didn't know it would hurt that much.now i do and i never ever wanna feel this way ever again.

sit tight

2011-10-17T15:30:00.003+08:00

so as u all know i'm like the laziest person EVER!diet plans and exercise nvr work for me because i just don't have tat kind of discipline to do such thing.i know.such a pig right?newayz heng fong gave me this cream from soap and glory.hahahaha apparently all u haf to do is just apply the cream on ur lower body and just sit and the cream will do it's magic.it works better when u sit.sound too good to be true right :))) I KNOW RIGHT?!so for me right?hahahahaha and the packaging so freaking attractive ah!!!like omg so fun and all lorr.i tried their foundation/highlight thingy was so so awesome!i wanna camp and sleep in sephora.they haf all kind of awesome stuff lorr.like seriously fucking awesome.newayz back to the main point is i'm gonna try using this and see if it works.i'm gonna finish the whole bottle and if it doesn't work then screw it, got it free newayz!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i'm a cheapo like that sorry :)

kuala-la-la lumpur

2011-10-10T14:07:00.003+08:00

so i'm back from kl and i miss it already.not the city but the moment i spend with my love ones.i feel so happy there coz i feel wanted.i feel ppl actually welcome me there.i do not feel rejected and no one is judging me.it was just awesome being myself and even staying at home watching dramas for endless hour feel so blissful.i can't wait to go there and start a new life?leave everything else behind?is that even possible?i do not know.ok enough of me mumbling about my crappy feelings.

newayz i went to kl for uni survey and saw a glimpse of my future (hahahahaha fucking exaggerating to the max) and i liked wat i saw :) and i fell down and now i have bruises everywhere.they looked like abuse mark.hahahahahaha and and I GOT WASTED IN KL!hahahahahaha fucking alcoholic i know and for the first i officially club wif heng fong which was awesome.after all the years -____-" most importantly i actually spent time wif ❤ ones.it was so awesome that i didnt want to come back ipoh.i wanted to stay there.at least i haf distraction instead of feeling like crap like now :/

now that i am back ipoh,i dunno wat to do and kept me thinking what if i go to my chosen uni and noone like me there?coz all the ppl in the uni so "atas" and i'm like "pariah" how to blend in?i really do have that fear lorr.....i don't trust ppl nowdays.i learnt that i am fucking gullible lorr.whatever ppl tell me,i go believe and then in the end get myself hurt/used.i think i haf "pls use me" written all over my forehead.i am not saying every of friends or ppl meet is like that but it's just lately that seem to be the case so i duwan throw my heart out like that and then get hurt.awful feeling!!so yeah i am only human,of coz i haf fear and insecurity and all those shit.argh!fuck it i dun even know wat am i writing anymore.newayz thanks for wasting ur life reading this lifeless post.

till i see u

2011-09-29T20:42:00.002+08:00

i don't think you ever realize how much u love something until you have to be apart from it. It may seem daunting at times to be miles away, but it’s a challenge I’m willing to take. Because the way I see it, one more day without you is one more day closer to being with you. Time is the key to everything, and love is everything

i dunno what am i doing

2011-09-29T19:55:00.007+08:00

i think i spend way too much time alone at home which makes me an emo bitch.i am usually not an emo bitch one lorr.i'm always laughing and smiling and giggling and being nonsense but lately i hardly do so.i seriously think i spend too much time overthinking things i should not be thinking lorr.i don't even know what's bothering me anymore.i upload these pictures to remind me i too can get a prefect love.i too can have happy ending with someone whom loves me and want me.not someone whom say they wan me but nvr really shows they want me.i know i am greedy.but i need to feel secure in a relationship.i duwan to be hurt.i can't bare another heartache.i seriously cannot take another damage to my heart.it's fucking fragile u know!i duwan to throw my heart out and in the end wat do i get?hurt?no!i can't handle it anymore.i seriously cannot.i duwan sleep with pain no more.i don't think trying to convince myself u do love me is no longer enough anymore.i need u to prove it to me.i need u to want me.i need u to show it to me.or just watch me leave.i am being selfish because the pain,it's just too painful.too much for me.i dunno how long can i pretend i am fine.if u don't really want me,pls let me know now and end all this pain misery thank you.

skinny love

2011-09-24T21:43:00.006+08:00

~~When you're in love, you wake up a little happier in the morning.~~

i do not know when the last time i feel loved.that happy butterfly feeling u feel inside knowing that the person u love/miss feels the same way too.ur heart skips a beat when he holds ur hand and u feel the world just stopped.that feeling when all ur friends tells u that their sick of ur lovely dovely act.when u can't stop text each other.wont want to hang up the phone coz u have too many things to say to each other.ah.....those wonderful feelings.WHERE R U?!instead now i feel so empty.no one to share ur feelings with.when u go out seeing everyone holding hands and u feel ur hand is so empty.how u envy ppl can cuddle together while watching movie.have romantic moments.even the sims on fb can have smooches and all and me?well all i can do i imagine.that's the best i can do for the moment.HOW SAD?!finally i said it.i always didnt dare to say it out coz ppl might think i'm desperate or something.ah fuck those ppl.this how exactly i feel right now.empty,bored and lifeless.i feel so meaningless coz those nights when u can't sleep,or there's something bothering u,that one special person will share that burden wif u.now?talk to the wall la!!!now all i could think of is pack my bag and go travel alone.go meet new people.duwan feel like a bloody nobody.y am i so emo?i aso dunno y.maybe i am carrying a burden/desire that i could not share wif ppl.when i occur with problems,i feel suffocated?i know i am just being dramatic like usual but still i do feel suffocated right now!i really do!!!!!!!!!!!!!i need something new in my life to distract me!i need distraction.any kind of distraction will be good coz i duwan feel the way i feel right now.super suffocated!!!feeling super pathetic too :( newayz my wishlist this year is to go for holiday and get a camera.hopefully it will come true??k la dunno wat to blog about aso.just randomly having those moments whereby i wish i was someone else right now.

Cheers to the freakin' weekend

2011-09-23T15:51:00.007+08:00

~~to miss u is something very painful because i'm not sure do u feel the same way.~~

such a hot day.right now i wish for ice cream,chilled beer and a pool.thank you.i come to realize that September is ending soon.so fast!and here i am still wasting me time.someone pls slap me and wake me up from all this blur.i nvr felt so confused as i feel right now.argh!screw it.i don't want to think about.all i want is to go for a holiday.that's all but who am i kidding la.holiday worr......i'm suppose to get a job and here i am day dreaming of going for a holiday.newayz i totally forgot what i wanted to post already.i just wanna update my bloody blog coz it's freaking died just like the owner me.i am listening to rihanna's cheers drink to that song like over and over again.not as if my weekend gonna be any more interesting like that.kehilangan alot of kaki lepak and miss them :(( aihz so bored.y isn't there anybody ask me out already?omg!i feel so desperate.HAHAHAHAHA so pathetic la not knowing who's around and who's not.what's more pathetic is everyone like already watched Johnny English and i have not.so sad la!feel so outdated.i feel like i'm behind time.is only 5.20 in the evening.gosh!oh ya i totally forgot i wanna exercise and lose weight right?ah screw that thought.diet always starts tml!hahahahaahahahahaha Y AM I TALKING TO MYSELF ON MY BLOG?!omg!newayz i dunno who actually spend time reading my pathetic blog but if u do,u're awesome just like me just that nobody appreciate it ni!newayz thank you for wasting ur life reading this.

S.I.C.K

2011-09-19T22:56:00.003+08:00

nope.i don't have a picture of me being very sick but only a very pretentious picture of me trying to look very pitiful.pitiful leh?newayz i am back in ipoh and there goes my passport to freedom.gone forever.gone in the air.yeap.juz like tat.STRESS!been having fever for like the pass few days and no it's not like those normal slight fever.is like soaring high fever whereby i can feel my brain literally being cooked by heat!i wanted to die ah!!

ok as if being sick is not enough.the tigress must call like a dozen just to yell at me.yala i know I'M SICK!NOT MY FAULT RIGHT?I DIDN'T ASK FOR IT OK?she yell at me with questions like "y r u sick?" if i knew y was i sick i would be a doctor right now and not ur daughter lorr!seriously.so now every time the house rings.i pretend not to hear it avoid being yelled at.it's like against her brain function not to yell at ppl.

newayz it's finally night time and i could get some quite time all to myself now.like finally.so stressful.i think the fever has took 50% capacity of my brain.i dunno how these ppl expect me to rest when my brain is constantly being bombarded with chores and things to do and worrying about my bloody sick condition.which is pretty bad right now.i have red dots all over my hands and legs and face.i'm afraid to see the doctor and i don't even know y.now my face looks horrid as if i have an acne infection face which actually not.thanks to all these stupid red dots.argh!fml la!!!!k la i wanna go sulk at corner and swallow all these misery in.

bored blogging

2011-09-14T17:12:00.005+08:00

i'm bored.forgive me for all the nonsense i'm about to post.i'm just bored like really bored.all i could think of right now is food.seriously.literally food is swimming in my brain and i still smell like mcd.fml.i think today is seriously not my day lorr.i spilled coke in my car and chilli sauce all over myself.fml lorr.and the worst part is i just had my car wash yst >:( wtf right?and it rained so i could not wash my car and now that it stopped raining i'm lazy -____-" been overdosing on vampire diaries these few days and i even dream of me myself being an vampire.wtf right?i've officially lost my mind d.

there's been alot going in my mind lately.like ALOT.and i'm still aimless.feel like whatever decision i make also fucked up one.dunno y.maybe coz my brain is fucked up that's y.that must be the answer lerr or either i am too free jorr that's y keep on thinking fucked up stuff.either way ntg seem to be working and i dunno wat to do.hmmm......been day dreaming alot lately.LIKE ALOT.every second i seem to be day dreaming hahahahahaha like i stare blankly and just day dream oh how nice if i had blah blah blah now.....i shall declare myself day dreaming queen!MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

now now come back to decision and choices.i suck at it.i can't decide or make choices.damn bad at it.till today at this age still suck at it.always seeking for advise and like ask ppl a hundred time till ppl get so sick of me :( sorry la just wanna hear what u gotta say ni mah.confused mah!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA aihz why am i posting this post again?I HAVE NO IDEA!oh ya i remembered!coz i'm bored and i wanna distract myself from thinking about food that's y and come to think of it what shall i have for dinner today?!

feelings

2011-09-10T23:19:00.004+08:00

u know it's been awhile since i actually write down what do i really feel inside me.i always choose blog post that rather not that personal and write what i done,where i been and things like that because i fear that ppl might judge me if i put my guard down.is just a fear guess but the reason why i had blog in the first place is to share my feelings with others isn't it?

i do not know why ppl like to think that i'm ok being pushed around and they can go all over me.i seriously do not get it.i might not portrait much of my temper problems but i do have my problems and secret and insecurity.is just not written all over my face.i might try to distract myself but problems won't just go away even if u want it to right?

sometime i wish i was tougher?i wish i could stand up for myself?i wish i could tell them off but i also have my fears of losing ppl from my life.i am only human and pleasing ppl seem like the only thing to make ppl stay in ur life.but is pleasing ppl makes me happy?nope.so why am i doing it?i do not know.

sometimes i wish i too could be emo.like those emo ppl u see in fb twitter and all but i can't.i just can't.when i am feeling sad,i would love to suppress it until it goes away but it doesn't.i would pretend to go out with my friends and laugh it away and act like ntg happen but actually what i wanna do most is cry my heart out but then again i'm a big girl,i do not wanna cry anymore.

i'm strong.i can smile trough it all and i'll be fine.to every problem there is a solution and all i gotta to do is have the courage to face it.it's ok.life still goes on and i know i will be fine.better things r coming.i must be optimistic because if i do not help myself noone else will.

where do i begin?

2011-09-10T00:55:00.011+08:00

i know i have been neglecting my blog like hardcore.like super hardcore.is not that i duwan update but coz i do not haf internet connection therefore i can't update my blog u see.well basically i have done ntg productive lately except for getting wasted -____-" i'm such a horrible person,i wanna commit suicide and die.i even got my results d ah.let's juz say i pass all la k?if i say ntg much happen in my life,i would be lying la but i dunno how to type down all my feelings.everything seem so messed up and i'm confused.i am such a confused child pls forgive me for i am such a fickle minded person.

newayz this is me and babe foong yi wasted.

then balik ipoh

with suyin

kirthen

and dicky.
it was raya week la so everyone came back but i took hardly any pictures.don't ask me why but i hardly camwhore lately.maybe coz i feel ugly that's y.

raya open house :) the food was awesome ah!thank you house owner :) it was an awesome week la i get to meet wif everyone and got a few nights out i was ahem "xaxau" if u know wat i mean but i was glad it happen because i had fun doing nonsense.it's been a while.and when everyone left to their normal life,i felt the emptiness even more.like super empty and i dunno wat is missing in my life.newayz i left to penang again.such a bitch right?

forgive me all the camwhore picture.i was bored waiting for ppl to rescue me as i broke 2 keys and was stuck at home alone -.-" i know.who breaks 2 sets of keys?ya me.such an idiot.aihz epic failure i tell u.

and say hi to daniel!the reason i can blog and online using my macbookie again because he fixed it :)))))))) i know i damn buta technology one!thank you daniel :) oh ya i forgot what i wanted to write in my post actually.i juz feel like blogging because i wanna post all my vanity pictures!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA damn lame i know sorry.it's me!always lame like usual.newayz wat i am trying to say here in my post is that i am lost and aimless in life.y am i like that?hmmmm......at my age,i know i am such an epic failure so yeah i fail in life and thank u for wasting ur time to read this

love them pls

2011-08-16T00:11:00.003+08:00

so i have watched planet of the apes like twice.once in ipoh once in setiawan.crazy i know.newayz the first time i watched it i cried like shit.i dun even know y i was so touched by the movie -_____-" it's sad ok to see the animals being tortured!!i don't like la seeing animals being tortured and ignored and being experiment on!so evil u know!i know i am not like super hardccore animal lover and all but animals have feelings too u know!and they r so cute!!aihz watching the movie make me so sad to see all the apes being tortured all.i cannot help but cry!argh!i know i have lousy tear duct.i cannot help it la.but the second time i watched i was not so much la coz i kinda distracted myself coz i duwan cry the second time.damn shy.newayz remember animals have feelings too.don't torture them k?i also dunno why am i writing this post also.hmmm........... being lame i guess.newayz thank you for wasting ur life reading this :)

holiday

2011-08-15T23:24:00.009+08:00

i know my blog damn dead.didnt update for so long d.hahahaha coz i'm lazy and i got ntg to update.actually got la but i damn lazy ni.like usual.bloody slot what!hahahahaha so i have graduated and migrated back to ipoh.so the other day babe foong yi followed me back to ipoh/lumut to fix me car.so yea here's our camwhore pictures because we were like dead bored.

newayz i damn lazy wanna type.i juz wanna upload pictures ni!HAHAHAHAHA i ate damn alot during my time here.gone!i came back everyone say i lost weight but now,GONE!habis my waist line.i can feel it but nvm la.who cares la!was nvr thin anyways!i love my curves ok?muhahahaha ok when i can think of a nonsense to write,i will :)

Teenage dream

2011-08-02T16:53:00.000+08:00

i can nvr get enough of this song.so sexy.

it's the end or the begining?

2011-07-30T03:49:00.003+08:00

woots!i finally did something useful in my life which is finishing my diploma.if u actually follow my blog/twitter/fb/if u know me personally,i am a failure in life.that's the true story.i never finished what i started and i always give up half way.damn CMI right me?newayz i just did my final exam few days ago.which i think i did ok.i hope.i wish.hahahahahaha many times i wondered will this day ever come when i first started my course and now that is over,it's so surreal.i still cannot believe i made it trough 2 1/2 years!OMG!!i am proud to say,siew ee did something useful in her life.HAHAHAHAHAHA as u all know,i am known as the complaint queen :s yala!i know la i complaint alot.so complained how much i hated my college and the ppl and how i wanted to leave like right immediately and so on.but now that i think about it,i was being a drama mama (like always) hehehe it was bittersweet thinking back about all the memories i had.u got the good and the bad.i appreciate all the memories given.all the friend i made and lost and those whom stays all the way :) i even found love here.can u believe that?HAHAHAHAHAHA and trough it all,it was a good experience and if i were given a chance,I DO NOT WANNA DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN!muhahahahahahahahaha thanks for all the memories ppl!may life ahead of u is good and all the best :)

It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to

2011-07-25T05:43:00.003+08:00

it's my birthday and i am literally crying coz i am burning the midnight oil for me final exam in few more hours.FML to the max la wei :( newayz i having the most epic birthday yet and sorry for the lack of update.getting lazier by the minute.ok i wanna go k.o now.headache.wish me luck ppl :)

to the beach?

2011-07-15T04:02:00.005+08:00

ok so we were invited to this real last minute bbq party at paradise beach.epic.we stayed till like in the morning.made new friends and i must admit,trying to remember ppl's faces in the dark can be a tad of challenge coz they all look so different when there's light.HAHAHAHAHA or maybe is just me?

newayz here's me and me beloved babe

the trios who has been hanging out like for the whole week.

new friends.

newayz u wanna know what's the bizarre thing about this party?well half trough it everyone went missing then people getting thrown into the sea and the most epic part of all is ppl getting emo.maybe is the break up season i dunno.ppl staring being sad.telling their break up stories and some cried -.-" i dunno.i was spaced out and not paying attention to any.being emo is very contiguous and i try to avoid as much as possible.newayz ya there is basically it.i juz wanna write this post because i juz love how the pictures make me look thin that's all!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA thank u for wasting ur life reading this :)

1+2=3

2011-07-06T12:45:00.008+08:00

maths.aihz sudah berapa tahun tak guna u?now at my final sem,i gotta face u?ish!dear maths,can u solve ur own problems?

ini baru chapter 1 ah and i already got headache.how to go on?i seriously fucking sked lorr

pretending hehehehehe ><

my sifu(s) teaching me maths.i am sorry i gave up half way.damn hard.i dun think my brain haf the logic to understand maths la *SIGHS* i feel so sad

camwhore pictures hahahahaha sorry la.how i wish exams was as easy as camwhoring.i would most probably ace it and get award for most pictures HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA omg!y am i so lame?ok i am juz bored.i am updating because i wanna avoid myself from sleeping.i know if i fall asleep i would nvr wake up in time to go college :s

oh ya this is the print screen of my friend spamming me on fb -.-" 11 check-in(s) within an hour damn lame wei this fellow.i know i am being lame for posting this also hahahaha but i am being lame now wei.i am sleepy and dunno what to do and updating nonsense on a blog that noones reads and doesn't generate money and yet i post.i don't even know y but i juz do.hmmmm.......newayz i ran out of crap to post d la.what should i post leh?when i got more camwhore picture then ni i post la hehehehe

scarred for life

2011-07-05T11:05:00.009+08:00

damn dramatic right the tittle?is not tat drama actually.just wanna drama sikit only HAHAHAHAHA newayz *ahem* there is not easy way of telling this but i got myself a tattoo *ahem* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i know right?like finally?all talk and no action?ya finally.newayz if u r wondering who is this baby,this baby is the tattoo artist daughter.i was playing with her while waiting for my turn.

she's sho cute and no i didn't make her cry,she was having flu thus the watery eyes.

there is me getting my tattoo done.thanks to Mr.D to distract my thoughts from the pain.is actually not that painful but when the needle hit certain parts it does hurts a little.

there after down.my friend say my hand looks like a chicken meat wrapped in a cling wrap!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

here u see it after few hours

and there u go the next day after all the swelling is gone.i know i know many of u all say i waste money for choosing a white color tattoo.personally to me is something rather personal and is something that close to me my heart.i don't think i need to explain why but to me it's nice and i like it.the pain was so so only but the outcome of it is nice.i just simply love it.now i know is it such an addiction to me and yupe i pop the cherry of tattoo :) i might do more tattoos i might not.i am not sure but for now,i am happy for getting this one :)

wish u were here

2011-06-22T17:51:00.002+08:00

Missing someone isn’t about how long it’s been since you have last seen them or the amount of time it has been since you last talked. It’s about that very moment when you are doing something and you wish that they were right there with you.

tanglung hijau

2011-06-17T23:24:00.006+08:00

so as u all know the green lantern is here d so me and the boyfie went and watch on Wednesday night.damn fast right?i know!another superhero movie!hahahahaha omg!i feel like i am continuously watching superhero movies because in the morning i accompanied the boyfie to watch x-men first class ( yeah i know!round 2 for me) and during the night we went and watch green lantern!and i will never forget this day because after the first movie,someone hit my car and went off in gurney plaza.so pissed off u know!luckily the damages wasnt that serious but i still did launch a police report and all that's y i got late and stuff like tat!damn saddening ah!
newayz initially i wanted to get a green lantern shirt so i can go watch green lantern shirt with it.i wanted the one sheldon is wearing but tarak.the one sold in DC freaking ugly.dun like!so i didnt get to wear a green lantern shirt to watch green lantern.so frustrating ah :( newayz the show was alright compared to x-men in my opinion and for those whom have not watched it pls do because the actor who played Hal Jordan ( ur human green lantern corps), Ryan Reynolds look so hot in the movie ah!with his body all!fuh!!!worth it and oh ya pls wait till the first credit ends because they are one short little scene for u to watch *wink* no need to thank me HAHAHAHA

newayz the boyfie is now back in kl safety and here i am in penang,laksa deprived :( have not eaten laksa for almost 2 weeks d.very sad!extremely sad!i don't think i could be this sad!i know i know i am exaggerating again sorry la i can't help it.newayz too many unfortunate events had happen in the past few days and it is making me very emo!dunno y.but it ok.i am taking my life from negative to positive!think positive that's what mr.d told me so i must.i miss the boyfie very muchie.now i am back to being alone in penang.being lazy,fat and bored and emo in penang.argh!newayz once again thank you for wasting ur life reading this post.

turn on the nerd mode

2011-06-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

busted for not doing my assignment.oh well,like usual we don't fight till the day has arrived.currently there is like 1 million pending assignment still not done (i know i exaggerate alot at times,what to do?drama mama what!) and yet i am here wasting my time frustrated at the fact my bb won't fucking work.not only that,i can't even call digi and ask y is my bloody sim card rejected from my phone?!ARGH!!so angry!how to do assignment lik this?so frustrated u know!with the chibai weather so hot somemore.i am sorry for the cursing but i can't help it!too angry d!how is one gonna survive without their phone in this era?unless u r 70 and above fine!so angry i can eat a whole big box of honey star right now to feel better.seriously.i am not kidding u!

on the other note,i have been slacking alot this sem!i think this is the only sem i slack so fucking much.i don't even know y.is like i am not interested going to college anymore.i skip more classes then i intend to and i think i am getting a lot of trouble for it.ever since mr.d is no longer in penang,i don't feel like i belong here anymore.i don't like being alone here.is just not the same without him.

lastly (hahahaha like writing some bloody essay like that!) i am gonna do my very fucking best to not skip fucking classes and study hard (as if ) and graduate and get the fuck out of here but wait!what am i gonna do after i graduate?i have no fucking idea.pls don't ask me this question anymore.i don't know.all i know is i wanna get the fuck out of here ( before that i must fucking alot of laksa till i get sick of it,then ni leave ) and as long as anywhere but penang,i will be fine i think, i hope.now i would like to sing u a song before i end this miserable post and torture ur life.

♪♫Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far♪♫

i am tempted to put the whole damn lyrics but then again i got lazy and i know u won't know what song it is.if u know then u r awesome like me.if u're not erm.....try figure out what song it is and u'll be awesome!WAHAHAHAHAHA ok thank you for wasting ur time reading this post.

❤'s 21st bday dinner

2011-06-13T01:15:00.020+08:00

don't ask me y i separate my blog into 2 parts.i aso dunno y.i guess is easier this way?hahaha newayz we celebrated mr.d's 21st at a restaurant called Elcerdo.

this is a place where all dishes are mainly pork.SUPER TAK HALAL!

couldn't resist taking picture with the cute menu.sho cute right the piglets all?hahahaha ok there were more food la but we nvr take picture of it la.these pictures were not from my camera aso btw and the "king-of-the-day" was late for his dinner aso -.-" so the main dish of the night was roasted piglet

there u see,our victim.poor thing but taste so good.so the birthday boy will perform a ceremony of cutting the piglet using only the plate to show how tender the piglet is la.our waitress,tundi (that's really her name ah!) show and explain to us why la this tradition is being done la

after cutting the piglet,u have to make a wish then break the plate u use to cut the piglet with.so yeah that's all for the ceremony la.then this is mr.d's birthday cake.

cupcakes from wondermilk.thanks to Nas for ordering them earlier for me :)

they decorated the cake this way

sho cute right the little cupcakes?

newayz so basically this is how mr.d celebrated his birthday la.i know damn lacking of picture.i abit shy la wanna camwhore in front of his parents!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA although through the trip there were many misfortune events happen but eventually everyone had a great time together.i hope mr.d had a great celebrating his 21st birthday with me and his family.although through the whole trip,i could feel the warmth and how close is mr.d's family is.i am very happy that i could be part of this celebration and seeing the smile my mr.d's face when he found out his family actually took the opportunity to come down to kl just to celebrate his birthday.i am very thankful for all the accommodation and food they belanja me :D it was wonderful and now my mr.d is a man hehehehehe :) ❤

happy 21st my ❤

2011-06-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

happy 21st birthday mr.d. i hope u had a blast turning 21 and i love u very muchie.may all ur wishes come true on this very special day and hopefully there still many more birthday to be celebrated together in the coming years :) ❤

my dream man

2011-06-06T02:37:00.014+08:00

have u watched the new x-men movie?x-men first class.it is awesome ah!to me!to u ppl out there i don't know la.newayz i loved this movie so muchie.i've not seen the trailer or did any research on this movie so i assume it was like the typical x-men movie la but i didn't expect it to be this good ah!i give 10/10 :) coz my Charles Xavier character was awesome to the max ah!!oh i wanna marry him!omg!guys wif brains are so hot/sexy!
i think i am in love with a movie character and whoever wrote this character is awesome and they has cast the right man to hold this character!omg so awesome la!i think i am in love with Charles Xavier la.how?i have finally found my dream man!omg!so sexy!with the accent all some more!omg!i wanna watch this movie over and over and over and over again!!!!!!!!!

ok so i was dumb enough to be tricked to go out on a weekend and it was a disaster.thank God x-men save the day!awesome movie.made my day!it was like literally the whole of penang is in gurney plaza.so to end the day,i was stuck at the jam in the parking lot of gurney plaza for 1 hour!wtf?juz to get out of the stupid car park took us 1 hour.waste petrol and time ni!argh!so angry ah!!!newayz we decided to camwhore in the car to ease the frustration.

there u go,our awesome camwhore picture.sorry if u feel disturbed after looking at it.hmmmmm.....newayz ya all i wanted to say is I AM IN LOVE WITH CHARLES XAVIER!ok thank you for wasting your time reading my blog :)

Transition

2011-06-05T04:49:00.004+08:00

Transitions in life are usually marked by major events, birthdays, graduations, weddings; but the greater transition often come out of smaller moments, when we stop and look at who we are, because each time we see how far we have come, we also see how far we still have to go. In order to fully transform, we might need to free ourselves of everything we’ve been holding on to, to send us on our new path, the right one. But if at the end, you find the person you have become is not the person you want to be. You can always turn around and try again

oh well

2011-06-05T01:41:00.004+08:00

ok i wanted to make this a vanity post and just flood my whole blog with my camwhoring picture but then again i got lazy wanting to upload them so i didn't.what is the purpose of this post?i don't know.i'm bored and i refuse to do my assignment and i ran out of ppl to stalk.so unhappy!i need to add more interesting ppl on fb so i can stalk them!HAHAHAHAHAHA i think thanks to bb,i have fb all the time therefore i'm like so sick of the same thing when i on my laptop.damn lifeless right me?i know.i feel it too!staying in on a saturday night.
oh ya juz wanna show off (a little) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA see i change the icon on my mac!buhahahahaha cute anot?cute anot?is something i learnt over the internet out of boredom and now i am addicted to it!usually all these cool stuff,my bf ni know how to do.i dunno one.buta technology mah me!seriously!but now!not only i know how to change the icon thingy,but i aso know how to print screen!buhahahahaha so proud of myself man!ok i know this has changed from a suppose-to-be-vanity post into self-praise post.i can't stand myself either!omg!!what is wrong with me?lack of human communication i think!oh well,i ran out of random shit to say so i shall leave this as this and continue streaming my show.thank you for wasting your reading this :)

once upon a time

2011-05-29T21:06:00.005+08:00

i'm bored so i decided to flood my blog with nonsense like usual.so long long time ago there live this obnoxious little girl who talks alot,love to run around and annoy the crap out of people and i forgot wat i wanna crap d.oh ya,I FORGOT!

nvm i juz wanted to show the obnoxious little girl who talks alot,love to run around and annoy the crap out of people and when she grows up

she still is that obnoxious little girl who talks alot,love to run around and annoy the crap out of people HAHAHAHAHA omg!i look like a mental retarded child.smita will agree!newayz that's not what i wanted to blog about.i've been doing alot of thinking lately,i always did what others asked me to do.i nvr had a stand on my own.is always someone asked me to do or i see what ppl do so i go do.so the thought of getting a tattoo stopped.i'm afraid i might regret 1 day but there's this strong within myself for this pass few weeks is bugging me.i know the faces up there dun look like people who will get tattoos all but i wanna get la!

i wanna get something similar like this.i wanna get a tattoo on my wrist writing smile.i realize that deep down in me i am a very emo person.i am not as happy as what ppl say i would be.when i am alone wif only my thoughts,i get really upset and now only that,i feel as i grow older,i dun remember how to be happy anymore when unfortunate events occur which is sad la coz i am wanna be happy all the time even when i am alone all by myself and don't get upset over small matters la.i wanna be happy all the time.i wanna be able to smile and happy even though i dont feel like it.i wanna smile and show ppl my horrible set of teeth and just be happy like that obnoxious little girl who talks alot,love to run around and annoy the crap out of people.happiness is what i seek for in life and that's all that matters.so yeah i think i wanna get one.i know i am always all talk and no action but i shall consult a tattoo parlor and see what he say.this tattoo would be a birthday present to myself :) (let's hope i don't change my mind by then coz i am fickle like that)

sem break

2011-05-28T21:42:00.033+08:00

i know my blog damn dead lately.no mood wanna blog la ( actually i'm just lazy) i have a few pending post but due to the lack of pictures,i can't blog.well as u know everyone would prefer looking at pictures more than reading my crap so i love to flood my post with nonsense pictures.if u can't stand me and my nonsense well this would be the right time to stop reading because erm this is another picture filled post?

newayz as u all know i have sem break for a week.what does the sem break serve as?dont know dont care as long as i get my holiday :) so i went back to my hometown on friday for our ms suyin's birthday which is held at barroom ( where else can we go right?)

i present u the bday girl

dun ask me why her name priya fearless all

making wish all

muaxx

erm.....in conclusion semua mabuk and gembira!end of story!

after mabuk all muz go get supper at abc :) and then ni can sleep in peace

so the very next day i took a train down to kl to see mr.d ❤ it's been awhile since i last saw him and i was damn excited to see him.after mr.d pick me up from the train station and went to ikea because i have this erm swedish meatballs craving mana tau tutup!MCB!!!so we walked around the curve aimless and decided to dine in bubba gump

❤

the ambiance of it.sorry my first time here so must mengada abit take nonsense picture all!

our massive onion rings

shrimpers heaven

food!ok i was basically bloated after this meal!damn filling ok?almost died eating!the food was ok la but i still prefer ikea meatballs :( newayz during the night time we went i dunno what's the place name to chill and on sunday we went to haf wan tan mee and lepak at mid valley

during the night we had bak kut teh!teehee!then we met up with samantha and kelvin for snow beer somewhere in cheras and i would like to say ipoh's snow beer is still the best!

the next day i when and meet kelvin while mr.d haf to go to work :( so kelvin brought me to a place to makan ayam penyet!nice.but very spicy la but nice!

then at night we went for pork curry at mungo jerry!this is the bomb i tell u!omg!if u're in kl u must go try this ah!happy tummy till the next day.didn't do much the next day till night time we went and meet kelvin again in pavilion.

this is kelvin!my temporary driver in kl :)

we had our dinner at Carlos,Mexican Canteena

sam's tortilla i think

some beef thingy kelvin and mr.d ordered

my chicken something

kelvin and sam

:) finally a picture together ❤

after dinner we went to Weissbrau to chill

ordered a tower of carlsberg.erm....i still prefer tiger thank you.

thanks to kelvin,we took some picture using his Polaroid.make me wanna buy one also :( then after chilling we went for supper

beef ball noodles!yums!

then the next day some unfortunate event happen so i gotta call kelvin to accompany me again.so we went around subang area to fix kelvin's iphone.had pan mee in jojo's kitchen

the pan mee the in the night some unexpected things happen again and for the first time i wore freaking pariah to alive.the live band not bad u know and then i left the next day.

so here i am back in penang wishing my holiday were longer so i can stay in kl longer and spend more time wif mr.d :( but sadly no.i have class to attend and assignment to submit which has been delayed a thousand time by me.aihz!sorry i know looking at this post makes me hungry too!HAHAHAHAHAHA

ahem...recap

2011-05-20T05:03:00.004+08:00

ok i know i am suppose to be like urm update my blog about me exercising everyday turns out i failed again?seriously i am inspired juz not inspired enough i guess or there is too many road blocks along way due to my procrastinating.ya i have a lot assignment due this week and yes now ni i wanna start and i only finished one.yes i doomed and dead and gone!y am i so lazy after my internship?why am i so uninspired?y am i not taking college seriously now?hmmmmm....it beats myself to answer that question too.i will never know!
oh ya in case u r wondering,i cut my hair.yeah!i look like a kid now.shut up i know.hair will grow!no point of me beating myself up for a stupid hair cut!next time i will be wiser.hahahahahahaha omg!every time i stare at my stupid face i feel like so so so so so......i don't know!lost words for it.oh ya sem break is starting next week :D i wanna go see Mr.D hehehehehe i missed him so muchie.is so weird going out without.it's been almost a month i didn't see him.actually i have a lot to update but i am juz too lazy.forgive me for i am lazy.i am lazy.is there anything to cure laziness?of it juz run in ur DNA?and u juz die with it and bring it along to hell?no wonder God name it one of seven deadliest sin and i have!gluttony and sloth!i might juz die in bed while eating.

inspired

2011-05-14T15:59:00.008+08:00

ok despite my epic failure in trying to lose weight during my stay in ipoh,i am trying again this time in penang.i am gonna do the same thing.blog everyday (if the internet dun fuck me up again) and see how far can i go again!no harm trying right?everyday i shall dedicate 1 hour to exercise and try my best to do cardio during weekend!omg omg omg!

these pictures here were days when i was like what?skinnier?slimmer?better looking body wise not the face!the face was horrid ah!!pimples everywhere.break out hair in a mess and not glowing at all.hmmmmmmm.....look how thin i was then!fml wei!i muz be discipline and be thin d!cannot!
ok fine maybe not thin!can i juz have this woman body!omg!is to die for ah!ya i wanna have her body so i shall work for it!gotta work for it!ntg comes free in life!work for it siew ee!work for it!!!!!tml will be my day 1 if can coz the gang is in penang and i sked it might not work out!hmmmmmm.........NO EXCUSES U BITCH!JUST FUCKING EXERCISE!thank you.

love such a funny thing

2011-05-11T14:13:00.002+08:00

ok i know i'm a little outdated in posting this video,but i would like to post it now.don't know y.the feeling of wanting to watch this video juz came and hit me.hmmmm....with 5,616,486 views on this video,it clearly shows the video speak the truth and yet neither one of us wants this ending to happen to us.so how do we avoid it?how do we prevent it from happening?i don't know.nobody does.love is such a funny thing.one minute u're crazy over each next u r yelling on top of lungs at each other.love really is a funny thing isn't it?

everyday we're shuffling

2011-05-10T21:10:00.032+08:00

ok so last sunday i meet wif smita,kelvin,samantha and cypher as they were in penang.once they touch down penang,straight they dragged me to makan then upr.we sat at 1 of the bar in upr coz smita wanted to watch the match between mu and arsenal.kelvin and cypher was in the room while me,smita and sam head down to the bar for the match ah!check out who's being the boys now?

i forgot what's the bar name.sorry.but coz we ordered a tower of tiger,they gave us a plate of fruit.the grapes was awesome ah!i loved the grapes!damn sweet ah!so nice.then after that we headed to voodoo.dun ask me why but that was the only club open la on a sunday night.freaking empty (obviously) and we had the club lik all by ourselves.i dance lik nobody business like tat.i somemore went up to the dj and requested songs and they played all our songs ah!hehehehe all damn xaxau d after the club and it was lik 3 am.

there muka xaxau all

whoring themselves at the streets of penang.

♪everyday we're shuffling ♪

yea the song is still stuck in my head ah!!newayz we were hungry and all so bought some beer,some mee cup and chips and we headed to paradise beach.

enjoying her chips

this 2 happily sleeping

while this 2 busy moon tanning

they sang worship songs whole morning.dun ask me y!

personal beer opener!

we left at like 7.30 am.crazy right?i know!

the aftermath of everyday i'm shuffling!

kelvin's facial thingy!see it's for horny cell!wtf is horny cells?omg!this boy ah!no wonder so horny!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ya this ppl slept till God knows wat time!especially kelvin!!!sleep non stop!ish!!hahahahahaha newayz we checked out at 4.30pm and then went to makan at the famous cendol place.

smita and her char keow teow

ok i know i am pig.shiiii......!

otw to batu feringghi

tourist shoot!

with cypher

and sam

smita doing her thing ♪everyday we're shuffling ♪

sam is confused is it sunset or sunrise.hmmmmmmmm.....(inside joke)

jumping shot.

smita found her love.if she could bring them all back she will!

last picture with kelvin before they leave penang :(

penang nvr looked this good without them.they bring me so much joy after been awhile in penang,the ppl u know in penang doesnt enjoy penang as much as the tourist.so yeah being a tourist once in awhile is fun u know!we can do nonsense and not worrying about how ppl r gonna judge u!u're not from here,ppl dont know u well and all so it's fun!come soon ya guys!i wanna ♪everyday we're shuffling ♪ with u ppl!!damnit this song is still stuck in my head!!!

camwhore much?

2011-05-10T19:00:00.006+08:00

ok so i got lazy in uploading pictures.sorry for all the over dues post and all the sudden i think i give up on wat i wanna post.hmmmmm......newayz looking back at these pictures makes me wanna munch on ice cream!this heat is killing me and guess what?it's here to stay!so yeah!stock up ur ice cream and sun tanned lotion!it's gonna be hot!omg!how to survive in this kind of weather wei?can die!newayz been hanging out wif foong yi babe alot recently and i feel weird not seeing her.hahahaha omg am i turning into a lesbian or what?hmmmmmm...newayz i kinda duno want i wana post in this post so juz ignore me

sushi king bonanza

2011-05-10T18:44:00.011+08:00

so weeks ago sushi king had their annual sushi king bonanza and my course mates had this most random idea to go there and haf their dinner!despite the radiation we were warned about.hmmm... newayz we had some great laughter and food :)

let the good times roll

2011-04-25T22:02:00.010+08:00

Been hanging out wif foong yi babe alot lately.like super a lot.hahahaha our usual spot starbuckie.dun ask me y,but this woman seem to love starbuckie ALOT!

last friday we got really lucky coz starbuck decided to give us a free drink :)

then on sunday we went to gurney AGAIN!i know right?hahahahaha so we had our lunch at this ramen place.ok la the food.

her fried ramen!freaking filling ah this one!

my soup ramen.erm i dun really remember wat is it called

foong yi :)

and yes we went to starbucks yet again to drink and gossip.is like we have a never ending conversation or something!HAHAHAHA well at least every outing i haf wif her is always filled wif laughter and fun.good time

what makes u happy?

2011-04-25T02:50:00.003+08:00

No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.

Mr.D
Muah friends (u know who u r)
Food
Chow chow
Ice cream
Bubbles
Beaches
Counting stars
Cartoons
Children
Little cute animals
Cute stuffed toys
Kisses on the lips
Bear hug
Rainbow
Pastel colors
Wedding pictures
Day dreaming
Sleep!

of angry birds and bak kut teh

2011-04-23T19:29:00.025+08:00

so one fine day,my course mates decided to have a masak masak day at their house!hahahaha so i tot y not!home cooked food all.so they made bak kut teh sausages and tamogo egg.i think.hahahahaha and rice!it was yummeh ah surprisingly!so we decided every week we will have a masak masak day!muhahaha while we r still free now la!

so this is how our dinner look like!hmmmm as u know,mac only good for 1 thing and the one thing is the camwhoring services they provide us!so if u dun fancy me too much i reckon u to exit now as my post will be filled wif erm camwhoring pictures.yeah!is true!ur eye will burn!and bleed and u will die looking at it!thank you.

and oh look what we found!ANGRY BIRDS!!!!!

angry birds!ftw!

then we realize that iphone cannot cater to so many ppl that's when my macbookie come to good use

ok this is not even half the pictures we took.hmmmm....camwhore much?yupe we stayed till 2 am.i guess the neighbors muz have hated us so much coz of all the commotions we made.i can't wait for next week masak masak night :) so fun!teehees

let's talk

2011-04-21T01:24:00.009+08:00

finally i got my egg bens craving fixed!it's been months since i had my last egg bens!omg!hahahaha ya i know!damn enjoy life right both of us?nola!it's the freaking timetable for this sem screw us up lorr!ok la everyday our class have like 4-6 hour gap sometimes 8 hour gap!wat u wan us to do in between leh?go home and sleep?then i'll be too lazy to drag myself to class!plus nowdays penang weather is crazy!fucking hot ah!i can literally feel myself slowly melting ah!no kidding!newayz so for that 4 hour gap we went gurney to have our lunch and talk waste our time.

our lunch

and we camwhored in coffee bean and class!ok the class was rather boring coz he didnt do any lecturing instead busy telling jokes!so we decided to camwhore instead and fb and bbm and sms hahahaha damn horrible i know!i know maybe might puke looking at the overly too much pictures we took but wat to do?BORED MAH!apa boleh buat?ok actually nowdays my mojo for blogging has long gone but i cant sleep and i dunno wat to do online i tot i juz blog and rant some of my thoughts here!since it is my blog,so i can do whatever fuck i wan here la!hahahaha fuh!check out getting ganas!ok i am like a crazy person talking to myself in my own blog!freaky!k la this is too over!i am scaring myself now!i think i am mental!omg!how?

Hennessy Artistry

2011-04-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

It's back!Hennessy Artistry is back for the year 2011 and it is happening in Penang at Voodoo on April 28 and The Opera,Sunway Pyramid on April 30.The artist featuring for this time are Vandalism,Kyoto Protocol and Spinderella.

If u have forgotten or have not been to Hennessy Artistry before,it is an event whereby the party goers get to experience the art mixing.

The biggest Hennesy Artistry was held last year at Mines and it was the bomb! Artists such as Flo-Rida, Kardinal Offishall,Shayne Ward, Boys Like Girls, The Ying Yang Twins, Da Mouth, and many others has attended the event locally and it gets better every time.

The signature drinks served at Hennesy Artistry is awesomely good and from my previous experience at the event,i can't get enough of it.One glass after another and i still cannot get enough of it!

This year it is gonna be bigger and better than last year that's of course!so faster put on your party hats and have fun.

Passes to the H-Artistry 'The Global Art of Mixing' parties are by-invitation only.The party is strictly open to non-Muslim guests aged 21 years and above only.ID verifications will be carried out at the door.

fireworks

2011-04-17T17:52:00.016+08:00

had a random outing with foong yi dear in straits quay.dun ask me y the massive loads of retarded pictures.we juz felt lik camwhoring that's y!hahahahaha i bet everyone in starbucks must have thought we were crazy.but i had fun.for approximate of 6 hours of good gossiping!can u believe us?hahahahaha :) thanks babe for the everything ♡

then it was girls night out wif smita,suyin and su-xian.notice how all the "s" comes together?it's like smita,siew ee,suyin,su-xian hahahahahahaha oh well we had fun as well.took pictures laugh and drank.ok i muz admit after 2 weeks of not having alcohol in my system,it was kinda hard to digest it.not as hardcore as last time d i reckon but oh well now that i am back in penang,who's gonna pump alcohol in my blood?no one!exactly my point!when you're having fun,time seem to pass by so quickly.dunno when will i ever see them again next :( upset.newayz it was a great night out never the less ❤❤❤

oh boy

2011-04-11T21:28:00.003+08:00

I have tattoos, so I'm a trouble maker. I have curves, so I'm fat. If I wear makeup, I'm fake. If I say what I think, I'm a bitch. If I cry some times, I'm a drama queen. If I have guy friends, I'm a slut. If I stand up for myself, I'm mouthy. Seems like you can't do anything now a days without being labeled. So what, go ahead and label me, see if I give a crap

so class has started.nothing interesting this sem.just the usual.oh ya did i mention i have 2 subjects that surprisingly i am the only student.freaky but at the same it's kinda cool.hehehe...the bf is now safely back in kl :( misses him so muchie *sighs* i wish this 4 months would pass quickly.i dun think i can bare another year without him here.so torturing!can u believe it?this is my final sem!finally.like finally.i never thought this day would come.hmmmm....and finally it did!i gotta endure for another 4 more months and i am out of here for good.to where?i don't know.anywhere but here that's for sure!newayz hope this sem would juz end smoothly.no more dramas pls!so sick of it.i just wanna get it done and over with!and say my goodbyes!oh how wonderful!i can almost feel it!newayz i am running out of crap to type so yeah maybe some other day.

hop

2011-04-09T23:59:00.005+08:00

have u guys watched hop?omg!it's so freaking cute ah!sorry la but i love these kind of movies!so freaking cute ah all the animated characters all.so geram i see them!HAHAHAHAAHA if only i can adopt all of them home!hahahahaha they remain me alot of the rabbits i encounter this year!rabbit year mah!hehehehe

so cute right?i know ppl are getting bored of me posting the same pictures all over again but look at those bunnies!arent they so cute and innocent?sho cute la!beh tahan!if only i can have them!seriously sometimes is true that animal is better than human!if only they could talk like in the movies!how wonderful would that be!!!i wanna have a rabbit and baby(the Pomeranian puppy) omg!my life would be complete!seriously!newayz of anyone wanna watch hop again i am up for it!i wanna watch all over again!teehees!

jom kita minum and buat kerja bodoh

2011-04-06T11:56:00.031+08:00

*blow blow the dust away from my blog* finally i am updating my blog?hehehe nola!coz no internet mah so mei cannot update lorr...newayz i am back in penang d *sighs* i was just about to start warming up to party kau kau and college started!i miss ipoh already!*sigh* newayz this is some of the memories in ipoh.making me sad now.so sad.!

some might think we're crazy going out every night doing the same routine every night!no we're not.we just wanna have fun!

like make-up ing together

drink even before we enter a club!it doesnt matter where!at home,in the car or at abc.we just need a little liquor to keep our blood running!

take crazy shit loads of picture!making new friends in club!talk nonsense and get drunk and do rubbish and be very happy and go to sleep.

even when we're not drinking!we would still have a nice time doing nonsense!i dun even know y do we have so many nonsense to do!but we do!God must love us alot to give us such wonderful brains to think of so much nonsense to do.

oh how i miss ipoh!who is gonna do all these crap wif me in penang?i miss u guys so muchie!the little things is what matters most.who's gonna sing k wif me?sit couple sit wif me?eat and drink in the toilet?have food 24/7 in the mind?have life issue about almost everything!argh!:'(

the tale of hiking

2011-04-06T11:45:00.010+08:00

so this is a tale of 4 psycho trying to take kledang hill.so yeah we tried and we did.it was such a random thing to do.and we were excited to do it?HAHAHAHAHAHA we actually exercise and do healthy stuff too u know!hahahahahahaha

it's unbelievable how beautiful the view is when u're up there and the satisfaction u get when u're on top is priceless.hahahahaha and it was amazing la all i can say.super tiring!we laughed our way up no thanks to karl!hahahaha it was just amazing!
after hiking we went and whack food!hahahahaha look at the amount we whacked!!i dun think we burn half of our body fats but we eat like we nvr ate before.so ya this is the tale of 4 psycho trying to exercise.great time seriously good times :)

earth hour

2011-04-06T11:05:00.012+08:00

yeah i know this post is abit outdated but who cares?it's my blog!hahaha newayz on earth hour our dear friend smita has invited me and khat to her house for dinner.a candle light dinner *teehee* she prepared food for us :)

pasta

pasta sauce

and potato salad *yums*

so me and khat was early.we help out by lighting up all the candles :) it was so romantic and the candles smita prepared was so beautiful.frangipani flower candles!so nice and beautiful but when they melt very fast :(

the set up

me trying to lit the candles

our venue

it was awesome spending time wif ur childhood frenz talking about the past,the silly things u done and juz laugh :) every relationship/friendship and etc has it up and downs.nothing is prefect is just how we settle the conflict within and move on.such a wonderful night and indeed a night to remember.did u do ur part during earth hour by switching off ur lights for an hour just to support?we did and we had fun while doing it :)

last day

2011-03-19T11:14:00.003+08:00

i am a happy child again as today mark the last day of my internship :) but at the same time i am feeling very sad.the ppl i met along the way bring many precious memories to me.i am grateful for every experience they gave me.now i know what is like to be a reporter and it's freaking stressful but at the same time the ppl u meet along the way and how they put a mark into ur life :) is wonderful.though i might not be very keen in learning but i tried my best to do what i can and i hope they dun hate me for being childish and noisy HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

so this wonderful morning of not going to work throw me back to reality.a reality that hurts.a reality that i try to shield and use work to distract it.this reality,i dun like it.this reality is not nice.there is so many things that happened within shortly this 3 months and it's killing me.i know i am a tough cookie and i can go through anything.i just hope that someone would always hold my hand and tell me u can do it.we can do it.someone would pet my back and say u done well

there is one thing i really hope for is to be happy and ntg more than happy.what happens after happily ever after?do they really live happily ever after?how do they do it?i can only wonder.i can only ponder and wish i had the answer so wont feel this way.happily ever after where r u?

here a lil there a lil

2011-03-14T20:28:00.016+08:00

sorry i have been mia like God knows how long leaving my blog to collect massive dust.hmmmm....my wanna exercise everyday plan was an epic failure.let's not talk about that!make me sad ni!newayz as u can see this what i do every other night.not a very healthy lifestyle i must admit but what to do?i like it :) see familiar faces everyday and talk and have fun.newayz as u all know i have a white berry d :)))))) ok i know i wanted an iphone very badly buy bb is ok.i bbm nonstop now.like crazy *faints* and my hand get cramps from bbm-ing too much!hahahahaha might even get finger cancer and die ahahahahahahaha i forgot what i wanted to blog so yeah just enjoy the picture ni la.ntg much also.hahahaha

Day 14 -16

2011-03-05T00:00:00.008+08:00

so ok my exercise plan kinda epic failure.but it's ok.i will still try my best till day 30 i dun care hahahahaha newayz the other i went to lavish wif smita and we saw this person bring in some little rabbits in the club!wtf right?lavish is seriously damn epic!earlier we saw little kids dancing on the dance floor then we saw rabbits on the club table!so freaking cute ah!!but kinda pity the rabbit coz the music damn loud all....hmm...but damn geram la see the rabbits!TOO CUTE D!i wanna buy one la!hehehe and oh ya i cut my hair!i have bangs now!got bored of my fringe d so decided to have bangs now :) ok i kinda look like a kid now but erm.....ppl say match me :s i kinda try to be mature but i think i'll never grow up lerr!fml!ok i will try my best to keep an eye on my weight!stress!!so i guess that's it la.i lost my blogging mojo d.i do not know what to blog anymore because erm....i just don't know!hahahahahahaha thank you for reading :)

Day 6-13

2011-03-01T02:12:00.006+08:00

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ok there goes my plan of losing weight!epic failure i tell u!ish!too many nonsense plan d!too much food and got sick over the weekend :( argh!meaning to update my blog like forever but digi broadband is not being very nice to me lately.being such a bitch ah!cannot upload any crap so i got fed up and decided not to update.being lazy and today look at it!running so smoothly!bitch isn't it?hahahahaha erm i forgot what i wanted to blog in the first place but right i can just stone here and crap nonsense!wuhoo!is the end of feb and 19 more days before my intern ends :) can't wait.i hate this feeling of waking up in morning.i am so not a morning person ah!dunno why!i must spend my holidays wisely before college start and there goes my last sem and i am out of there.1 more sem to go!can u believe it!the day i have been longing for finally comes?hehehehehe ok first must long for intern to end.then must play kau kau.2011 pls be kind pls be kind.it's been a rough year i can say and at the same time it is not really that bad.i dunno how to describe it la.so.......i am just hoping and praying hard tat 2011 just be kind.randomly that day i dreamt of me being in school again with me friends.those times were wonderful :) i miss those days.so much fun.can we have a rewind button whereby we can just rewind back to those happy days and reminisce about it?just for that few seconds when we have a bad day.how wonderful will that be.just to be in that happy moment for just few seconds.i think that would be enough.it would be wonderful.just to forget things that is unhappy and upsets u!HAPPY THOUGHT HAPPY THOUGHT!plant it in ur brains!life mission is to be happy and it seem so hard.life.such a complicated journey.hmmmm.....

Day 5

2011-02-21T00:03:00.005+08:00

ok my aunt from england came back for holidays and *ahem* she brought like tons of junk for us to eat!i am officially a junk addict and on top of that,those food from CNY also not yet clear!*gasp* there goes my plan of being thin la.i think i just give up ni la ish!newayz today i very semangat walk 3 rounds and jog half round.HAHAHAHAHAHA next purchase have to be a sport bra *shy* itu manyak important so ok la.when i free i must go get a sport bra d :) *blush* my aunt will be here 2 weeks and she wants to eat all the "malaysian" food.hmmm.....that's it la!gone down the drain d the hope of losing a few pounds.newayz tml morning dim sum with aunt and grandma.....gotta sleep.nights.

Day 4

2011-02-19T23:01:00.003+08:00

so today is day 4 and erm i only did 4 sets of 10 sits up and now my tummy hurts like crap!hmmm.....ok i guess if it hurts means is good?means i at least burn some fat d?hahahahaha ok i am hoping to loose my tummy lorr.....i wanna have a body like kim kardashian lorr....big boobs,perky ass and flat tummy.damn hot eh!so this is what i am aiming for la.i am exercising not to be stick skinny like that.i just wanna have the chance to wear bikini that's all!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ok if i can't make i'll just save money and do plastic surgery.save all the effort but right now i will try my best la.seriously my tummy and abs hurts lorr....so from today onwards i will do sit ups la!hehehehehe :) *finger cross hardly* my tummy will go down abit la.i wanna try hula hoop too but but but but i can't hula :( but my friend told me it is one of the fastest way to loose the tummy :(( so i guess i wanna try to learn hula :( ok i am going to try!i will try everything for this 1 month!then after this 1 month i might just join a gym or something in penang.maybe i should just spend all my money on gym then after loose weight d ni shop like crazy.ok la so that's my plan la!so wish me luck ppl :)

Day 3

2011-02-19T05:00:00.003+08:00

ok day 3 plan fail again!GONE LA ME!!i can say it was raining and all but no excuses.i failed on day 3 :( since tml is my off day again YIPPEE!!i shall try to make an extra effort la.aihz i feel so useless right now.hmm...but i was happy to see hf la.she is back for the weekend :) lepak at her house till now.later around 8am must wake up d go market.confirm gg.com d one me.hahahahaha ok i must pick myself from where i left and start my routine again.this is sad.i am writing down my journal of failure in exercising.hf ask me to sign up for a gym!for 1 month?u must be kidding me!i rather go run around the park.being cheapscake i know but i am saving for something big this year so yeah.there's so many things i wanna buy u know!so it's like i wanna save as much as i can and there is so many places i wanna go.today's work was slightly better la!but i was feeling depressed too.i wonder why nobody bothered talking to me in office ah?hmmm maybe not same channel guar.but what to do being the youngest there,maybe the generation gap guar.but newayz it's not important la.the most important thing is I AM ENDING MY INTERNSHIP SOON!so happy!I can't wait to stop waking up early in the morning all!give me back my freedom!muhahahahahahahaha i can almost smell it.so close yet so far aihz newayz ya pls wish me luck in completing my 1 months plan.i hope it won't be an epic failure :(

Day 2

2011-02-17T20:07:00.002+08:00

today was a really REALLY bad day for me!so my day 2 plan for exercise failed!so friggin tired right now.i am not currently working under the most ahem FUCKED UP woman EVER!stupid woman!no wonder the face effin gugly!CHIBAI!seriously spoil my day ni lorr....ask me drive all the way to slim river and what do i get?ntg!!!!no news only sunburn!CHIBAI!she think slim river near ah?FUCKING FAR K?chibai!go there in the end?got lost in the estate.ask ppl,but dunno where la as if they dun understand like that.aihz.effin "kek sam" ah!argh!stupid woman!faster go back kl la!duwan see ur fucking face la!i feel like taking 2 weeks off ah!argh!not only that ah!the way she order and talk to ppl so effin rude ah!as if she was never thought manners before ah!i won't be surprise lorr coz she same kilang with those chibai ppl mah!think go kl d effin great like that.pulease la!so great then work for american's paper la what u effin doing in malaysia?sell ur chibai ah?nobody wants also la!chow chibai!!argh!so pissed off thinking of it!wasted my time and my precious petrol.if i know got ntg then i should had traveled to kl see my bf and came back!still got like 45 minutes reach kl what!damn pissed off!brainless woman!ok la so ya that's basically my day.feel like sleeping whole and take mc for 2 weeks!tell the doctor I AM ALLERGIC TO RUDE BRAINLESS WOMAN!

Day 1

2011-02-16T20:31:00.006+08:00

So today is my off day so of coz tidur kau kau and guess what when i woke up?my friend on fb told me my muka keluar in metro north :) teehee i got the byline and the picture :) teehee is so funny la. this is the full story la for those who dun get metro north (coz it is only available in penang and ipoh) (http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=%2F2011%2F2%2F16%2Fnorth%2F8071308&sec=North) hahahahahahahahahahaha

the star must love me alot

so today is my first day of my plan to exercise everyday for 1 month.and it was a success la!i went despite the fact i didn't feel like going at all in the first place hahahaha i went 2 rounds at polo ground.the big round.i wanted to go for another round but the clouds was turning grey so i erm stopped.hahahaha tiring.tml must think where and what time i wanna go for my exercise.hehehehe oh ya my dad damn freaking cute.he called and ask me why were i doing fake reporting hahahahahaha freaking cute la he.newayz today is a hot hot hot day and i miss the bf.hope he's enjoying kl and have heaps of fun there but not too much of fun without me hehehehe :) so that's it all for today.*finger cross hardly* i won't fail my 1 month plan!

the journey starts

2011-02-16T01:40:00.008+08:00

so today i went to kuan yin tong for a story and guess what!!i get to throw mandarin orange onto the wishing tree :)) it's not easy to get the mandarin orange on it ah!i feel like i'm in some hong kong show like that!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA newayz during the night,i go see my baby brother again!ain't he cute?hehehehe naughty boy!so active!but when i left that time he cried.make me feel so sad only.i will miss him :((( i hate good-byes especially those that u won't know when u'll meet them again.i was so excited to see him again today.when i was young,i had everything so i hope he'll get the same.argh!i miss him so muchie!i miss him and Mr.D :( can't wait to go to kl and meet them after intern and hug them and kiss kiss them :)

newayz back to my tittle,i am going to blog everyday for 30 days on the diary of me exercising because i wanna see in 1 month how many days i can successfully go for exercise and what i eat!muhahahahaha i have to d.been gaining weight like crazy and complaining about it won't help so....this is exactly what i decided to do :) i am full on for this hehehehe so wish me luck ppl :)

happy valentine's day

2011-02-14T19:35:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!!!

I hope everyone is having a blast celebrating valentine's day :) for those who are single dun frown.love is yet to be found and those who have ur the other significant d,well i wish all the happiness and love in the world and may love filled ur day today :) happy and wonderful valentine's day ppl :) and may true love find a way into ur heart and stays there FOREVER :)

p/s:thank you for wasting ur time watching this video :) ❤ peace!

of mistake and love

2011-02-14T19:03:00.005+08:00

so today is valentine's day and it never cross my mind that i could celebrate it with u because u're back in penang but yet faith has other plan for us,i left my ic and license with u.so u had to come all the way back to ipoh to deliver it personally to me :) thanks baby.actually there's many things i would like to tell but i don't know how.so blogging is the only way for me to tell u things that my mouth refuse to utter them out.i am truly grateful to have u as my bf and i would like to thank you for all the things u have done for me.the little things,the big things,the unconditional love.this year would be the first year we celebrated valentine's day together :) such happiness.when the clock struck 12 u kissed me and said " happy valentine's baby" and my heart melted.to me valentine's day was never about the gift,the dinner or anything.it is a day to remind us about everyone is dear to ur heart.though is sad that i could not spend more time with u during valentine's day but i am truly grateful for that few hours u came down.teman-ing me and my brother watch Green Hornet.this little tingle feelings in me jumped when i know u're coming and i might not show it that i am excited and delighted when u decided to stay,but i am.i am not a very expressive person when i comes to love.i am more reserve.only when it comes to love.i know i might look expressive especially when i'm pissed off but when it comes to love is a little bit hard for me coz i just don't know to express those melted feelings in my heart.i love u baby and i miss u so muchie.have a safe trip tml to kl and take good care of urself.i hope to see u again real soon :) HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY MY LOVE.

❤ & happiness

2011-02-12T17:57:00.019+08:00

so as u all know,newspaper do not stop publishing just because there is a holiday so therefore i worked during the CNY weekend despite the last post show i so semangat go out for family outing all.so the reward for working hard those few days,i get 3 days off :) sho happy and i fully utilized it.

Day 1

i drove all the way down to penang to see Mr D :) my ❤.i was so excited to see him.the first thing he did when he saw me was he gave me a kiss.....i feel so loved?hehehehe sorry la.too excited coz almost a month since the last i saw my boyfie.then we went to straits quay to do my nails.i know damn mengada right but the nail parlous was new so i had to do there!hehehehehe nice anot?i choose a crack black thingy which is kinda special for my toe and peach colour for my finger.now working d cannot choose funky colours all....

after the nails we went to gurney.to buy my first birkenstock.i tot like wth,my slippers get "botak" so easily and they are not cheap ah!stupid roxy also rm99.90 d so i tot might as well add another few ringgit buy a better one that last me longer and make me happier!it was prefect because it was pink and it was on sale!how cool is that?i abso love my birkenstock.so comfy :))

newayz after buying i was struggling to buy the prefect eye shadow for myself in the end didn't buy and went and meet up wif foong yi babe in gurney!we chat and gossip and talk a little before we parted ways and went to baby dear's house for dinner with his family.abit awkward la although this is not the first time i had dinner with them.his mum is really a good cook no denying that.then later that night went to mois.erm...not too excited about it but boleh la!as long as can spend time wif my baby dear :) ❤

Day 2

woke up pretty late.....had a little misunderstandings but it was all good.then had lunch and then off me go back to ipoh but of coz must do a little detour.went to queensbay to get my watch which is done d and walk around.ntg nice (secretly wishing i was in singapore so i can shop) then balik ipoh.grandma anxiously waiting for her lover boy arrival as we were kinda late for dinner.every time baby dear is back she'll cook damn alot.like can feed a village eh she!then later on we went to JJ to vent off all the food in our stomach and bought tickets to watch yogi bears!so cute ah!i love it!i am like yogi!food is life and life is food :) awesome!

while walking also i couldn't help it but remembering the sweets from sticky was so yummeh so baby dear decided to buy for me.thanks baby :) ❤ damn nice k?hehehehehe after movie we balik and tidur lagi.

day 3

so yeah we woke up kinda early coz the maid is here to clean the house and duwan kacau her so we got out of the house.deciding where to have our lunch we talked wasted petrol going round like a million times and finally we decided to give korean food a second chance and yes no more korean food EVER again in our life thank you.

i dunno what the hell we ordered also and it all didn't taste that good anyway!was having way to hard time to finish the food all!almost died eating it!gosh!then later on to kill time again we went to jj.wanted to watch movie but tak jadi so we decided to play go-kart la!so cheap rm30 for 10 laps!

it was not as nice as what ppl would say!but it was still fun coz u know me&baby dear are two child at heart and at any given time to play,we would play our heart out :) hehehehe i would go for second round again.i dun mind.it was fun.then later on had dinner wif grandma and some "bonding" time wif heng fong.

Day 4

a very sad day as i have to say good-bye to baby dear *sigh* (typing this is also hard) i drop him off the bus station and kiss him good-bye and he watch me drive away.....sad...wasn't feeling in the mood to work at all.missing him too much

brought lunch to work coz lazy wanna go out and eat while stoning in the office.i love my lesportsac lunch bag.so useful.love it!while typing this.the bf is safely in penang right now.missing him so muchie.and i wish he was here with me right now.gossiping with me :( i miss u very muchie baby dear and i hope to see u soon muaxx